Evil

We tend to make a joke out of evil these days. It makes it easy to forget what kind of dirty things lurks out there. Don't be fooled.

I had a horrific day today at Jury Duty. That may actually be an understatement. I am actually worried about what kind of nightmares might visit me tonight. Thankfully, I wasnt picked to be on that Jury.

We had five people break down during the reading of the indictment, say there was no way they could be impartial. We lost several more during the questioning, who flat out admitted they didnt feel they could be fair to the defendant considering what had already been said. I was worried I might get picked just because I kept my composure. Then again, maybe that was why I was struck. I will never know.When I got home afterwards, I spent over ten minutes holding my daughter tightly in my arms.

If a GM played out this scenario in an RPG that I was playing in, I would punch them in the face and walk out. It was beyond even imagining as a joke, a game, or a horror experience. It was beyond the pale. I think I could have been as impartial as a human can be, but if this person had really done what they were accusing them of, I don't know that death would have been a good enough punishment.

Some things cannot be unthought.

Tonight I go to bed with a heavy heart. I can only wish that memories of this day will fade quickly from my mind and never return.

May you sleep well, for I know that I will not.